good-bye

said goodbye to everywhere .
i walked through the whole place.
i knew.
it would be my last time to come.
everything was still here, but time went by,
something was changed forever.

last time i saw u.
there was no love, no hate. i was even no emotion.

super cold between u and me.

here was a lesson that i learnt from life.

no matter how pain i got.

i still believe in love . everlasting.

but.
say good bye to u .forever.

thanks god.specally.
u keep my mind clearly.
and always ask me to say no to him.

a little pain...

when i saw those photos, i felt a little pain...
always, always, always,
i knew there should be something between them.
but im not sure yet.

again,again,again. god likes doing such things to me.

i like his smile.
i know he is the one i want

but .as usual.
he is in the dream.
as usual.

there are a little pain,another one

when i saw someone like him.

when i went somewhere that we two went before.

i knew i wasnt get out from past.

becuz i still missing him.

i hoped i can see him at somewhere.

i hate him.

but why i was so sad when i sat at the place where we two sat before?

i know i dun like him anymore

my heart was hurt by him completely.

i need someone to cure it.

even my dear friend.

they cant help to cure .

i saw myself in the subway.

i saw the girl who dressed very nice,and smiled a lot.

i saw the girl who was busy to date with her bf.

i saw the girl who was knew the result but still wanted to make a miracle.

i knew i knew i really knew.

the day when i backed to singapore.

i knew it was over.

but . why still gave the light of hope?

i cried again.

i dun know why this relationship spend me such long time to forget.

i want to run away.

i dun want to remind him any more.

maybe , i just cant forget the happiness at that time.

people said

"the best way to forget an old relationship

is to start a new relationship"

but ,

for me.

the new one still not come.

and i think it will not come for a quite long time.

becuz the hope has gone.

the old one

i still cant forget .

and i dun know when i can stop to think about past.

today.

those two guy running in my brain.

i knew two of them are not belongs to me.

always see the hope,

and then. suddenly,

i drop in the black hole.

always.

thats why.

i got a little pain.

i will not come back beijing in the next year.

i think it is long enough to forget him.

but .how about singapore?

i will see him again,again.and again.

then .i d better to forget him in this two mths

dun want to love some one any more......so tired. and so ...pain...

Snow in Spring

depending on the Chinese calender, now is supposed to be SPRING.
but,
the first snow in Beijing came yesterday....

the whole winter was cold but no snow.

Beijing welcomed spring with snow....haha...
Even it was men-made snow....

haha....at least, we can see the white city again...

but the snow infected me , i reminded the promise that someone gave me.
i dun know why.
i dun want someone got happiness before me.
i want him to regret, to apologise.
but , the true was,
he got a new gf, and seems like very happy,
he never say sorry for his betray...
i felt a little angry without any reason....as it was over few months ago....

不知道什么时候可以完全放下,

不知道什么时候可以完全忘记,

也许只能等待时间把他慢慢从我心里赶走.

为什么不能做朋友呢,为什么明明什么错都没有的我,

要现在承受这样的心情．

我都可以装做毫不在意，

可是他却可以那样的狠心？

为什么别人可以做到的我永远不可以呢？

有的时候真的还满怀疑自己的．．．

并不是还在喜欢了，只是习惯了关注他而已，

可是这个习惯现在应该在慢慢变成偶尔吧．．．

不甘心吗？还是在不甘心着．

我感谢他让我成长，

虽然代价很大，

所以总有一天，

我要笑着面对他，

让他看到，

他曾经失去的，是多么优秀的我．．．．

我还是在相信着，

我一定可以幸福．

那个MR.RIGHT，

我相信我没有看错你．

希望这样的心情也可以传达到你的心里．．．

The song

This video ,actually ,i want to post it on the side bar,
but ,i tried many times...i cant find the correct button...
so i gave up...

This song is very sweet,
i hope i can get such sweet relationship with XXX...haha
i also hope, that guy can receive what i want to say through this song...

START!!

Since i created this blog account,it past many mths.
haha.
As many friends blogging here, i decided to start this blog.
It is my first ENGLISH blog.
oh, i still remember,i got a japanese blog,depending on the unimprovement japanese,i gave up..

so, two chinese blog,and this english+chinese bolg,
total i have three blog to manage....haha...