can you see my tears dropped with my broken heart?

i am willing to exchange.
use all of my happiness to change your suffering.
likes i did this deal to exchange my mum's suffering.

thats because i love you.

i didnt want to ask holy spirit to help me ,
but ,more and more, i cant handle, struggle.
i asked r to come down with me.the one who i trust.

i knew i must forget "i love you"
i have to treat you as a person like others.
i cant add any more feelings on you.

but, thats the most painful part.

love you is not easy,actually.
i never thought love someone can be such struggles.
i never thought love is meaning nothing for you.

love is the most happiness thing, isnt it?

no reason for why i love you.

it is the most difficult time in my life.
i cant control my feelings.
i love you,but i have to forget it.
if it is easy, meaning i even dont like you.

you never know how important you are.
you never know how i felt .

眼泪在没有预兆的情况下突然掉下来，
心一直很难受很难受。
看到你从我面前走过，我无话可说。
幸好R一直拉着我的手，LEADER搂着我为我祈祷。
有人和我分担我的痛苦。

忘记一个最爱的人是最最最痛苦的事情。
可能我一辈子也忘不掉。

这是我今天突然发现的事情。
我和YL说着你的IGNORE，你的NO REPLY，你的SILENCE。
都是你的不好，可是我的脑海里全还都是你的笑容。你是我的阳光，我还是喜欢你的笑容。
你的侧脸，我看也看不够。
我不怪你，还是要你好。你幸福就够了。

可能爱上WRONG PERSON就是这样吧？

心碎了又一次，我不知道什么时候可以停止这样的痛苦。
可是我现在要努力暂时封存我和你的回忆。
等到你牵起我的手的那一天，
或者等到你牵起别人手的那一天，永远的忘记你。

我好几次都说这是我last time cry because of you.
but,everytime when i know you have gone, i cant stopping crying.
because i want to know why, what happened.
but things happened always without reason.

hey .
dont worry,
i will always pray for you.
i will not leave church because of you.
i will keep following GOD.
i will do what you said.

and i will not bother you.

I LOVE YOU.
just plz remember this.