2009/03/24

letter to the heaven

to heaven:
i always believe that you are still here.
protect me, help me.

1994,9,7.
the day you closed your eyes forever.
i just been a primary school student for seven days
mum said you just slept.

after 15 years,i still thought you just sleep.
you never leave .

the time we spared was limited,
you even did not have enough time to tell me your story,
and ,witness every important moment of mine.

but , i know you are here ,you are not missed any moment.
because you love me.even you never told.
when i was in the locked room, you used laddle to get into the room and encouraged me;
when i was crying, you are the one hugged me.
never say no to me, always play with me,always ......

i never forget. i can not forget.

i watched some videos about you,
people use them to record your glory
i read some articles about you,
people use them to tell your story.
i am proud of these,i gain power from these.

i know you are here, just stand behind me.
the connect between us , like magic.

-where you have been,what you have done.
become what i want to do,where i want to go.
which i need to learn.

wherever i am. whatever i do.
you are with me
i cried in the night lonely, then you sit beside the bed, i feel the warm air around me.
i scared the loneliness in singapore at night, but stand behind me.give me the power to overcome.
i left home myself,but you go there with me.

after i cried,i became more stronger,
after i scares, i became more stronger,
after i left home, i became more stronger.
i grew up with you. i believe. you guide me to be stronger.
you are in my heart.

dear grandfather,
i never tell how much i love you , how much i miss you.
but today, i wrote it here.

tomorrow , i will see you. it is a really long time since i saw you last time.
this time, you stay there, wait me.


from,the smallest

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